Yes, I recall every detail of that
terrible, infamous day.
Oh, how my blood boiled as the sweet
taste of victory seeped into my mouth. On our sixth birthday, I dueled as
Odette against my brother, my sword flashing gold and silver under the sun. Knowing
I was the best, better and bigger than he, I lunged. And lunged again.
My opponent lost his footing, slipped
on wet grass sheltering rugged stones, and fell backwards. The sound of his
skull cracking as he hit a protruding rock sucked oxygen from the air. I couldn't
breathe. I felt Oliver's death before I saw it, and it was like an invisible
heart breaking.
Oliver and Odette parted forever. December 7, 1941.
I planned to step over my mortally
wounded enemy—my own twin brother—that vanquished soul who had tormented me since
birth, and climb the rock-strewn mountain to the top. I saw myself raising my
sword to the sky and imagined my victorious look as I smiled at the gathering
crowd.
But the crowd that gathered that day
was only Mom.
She stopped scanning the sky for
enemy planes to catch me in her vise-like grip; she shook me so hard my brain
rattled. She screamed until cords in her neck stood out; she pummeled me with
her fists, over and over, sobbing and sobbing, "Allana, what did you do?
What on earth did you do? Oh my God, Allana Odette, what did you do?”
God had no answer and neither did I
. . . and yes, oh yes, I relished that exact moment of victory . . . the
ultimate conquest over my brother, John Oliver Blair.
Dad came running with men from the
church.
People listening to radio broadcasts
about the Japanese attack on Pearl Harbor already had their teeth clenched for
war.
Boys playing kickball beyond the
empty park plunge stopped their game and came running; girls in pale Sunday
dresses gathered in shrill chorus.
All of them, hordes and hordes,
swarmed to bear witness to the unspeakable horror—a more personal and singular
death—that had befallen Oak Street Park and the Blair family.
"Oh, dear God, Allana, what did
you do, what on Earth did you do?" These words echoed all around.
With my breath held in check, I drifted
somewhere else—far, far away—a place where I really amounted to something, and
the very fact I existed made a big difference in the whole scheme of things,
and even though I was only a girl with a play sword, I was the hero, after all.