WHAT IF YOU HAD THE POWER?

What if you had the power to change reality?

The truth is . . . you do have that power.

As the sixteen-year-old protagonist in my novel CHANGED IN THE NIGHT discovers, reality is not what it seems. What we believe about ourselves becomes our truth, and that truth becomes our story buried deep in our consciousness. Allana's story prevents her from moving on with her life ten years after accidentally killing her twin brother. Her beliefs about herself warp her view of reality.

As Howard Falco says in his book I AM, "If I'm accepted, I'm loved. If I'm loved, I matter. If I matter, I exist." He tells us that our beliefs about who we are form our script and consciously or unconsciously define uu. Our beliefs determine how we make decisions in life and, therefore, help form our reality.

Our story is buried deep in our consciousness. A belief is a statement about reality that we feel is true.  As long as we feel it is true, it is true for us.

Life is like driving a car. Sixteen-year-old Allana Blair learns to drive a 1947 Buick Roadmaster convertible sedan in CHANGED IN THE NIGHT. Her Great-Aunt Grace instructs her on how to use the clutch and brake—look out, swerve, turn the wheel, slow down, bra-a-a-ake—and while driving, Allana must makes lots of decisions and risks. Eventually, however, we don't think very much about the risks or decisions as we drive. We're on automatic pilot.

Our story is the automatic pilot in life and reflects our positive and negative beliefs about ourselves. There are times we dislike something in others that are actually a reflection of our own characteristics we're in denial about and can't seem to change. We have all sorts of excuses why we can't or won't change our beliefs, and we rigidly stay within our self-destructive negative truths rather than risk venturing out of that reality.

Becoming self-aware is the first step to change. Once we make the decision to change our beliefs that cause so much emotional or physical or mental disharmony, then our perception also changes. What if we decided to no longer be unhappy or unwell? That very decision will then allow us to create happiness or wellness and our own reality.

There's a definite connection between what we feel, think, and believe. Over and over, we've heard that "whatever you believe to be true is true." And we've also been told, "what you think will happen will happen."

Positive thinking is important, but it begins with self-compassion. We have to care about the "self" in the same way we'd care about a dear friend.  

Thoughts create and feelings bring alive our reality. We design our reality with our thoughts and our feelings put the plan into action.

The reality Allana creates in CHANGED IN THE NIGHT is that she's not good enough since she's responsible for her family's misery. She cannot let go; she cannot forgive herself or others. Therefore, she's stuck in a dimension that prevents her from living the life she must live. It's a complicated and difficult process to find a new and more acceptable reality.

Nothing is as it seems. Anything is possible.

As Howard Falco says, "Your life is based entirely on who you believe that you are."

IT'S A MATTER OF TIME

Time does not exist.

Let's talk about time. Time is an important part of my upcoming novel CHANGED IN THE NIGHT and a topic of great interest to me.

The truth is time doesn't exist. Time only exists in our minds. All we really have is NOW. We think that time goes forward like an arrow, but it really doesn't. 

Yes, it goes forward, but it also goes backward, and all around. In other words, time is the past, the present, and the future at the same time, simultaneously, and that is something we can never quite get our heads around.

What you intend and give attention to is what becomes

We're so trained to measure time, to set our clocks forward or back an hour, to set the alarm to get up at the right time, to check our watches and cell phones to see how our time is running out or if we're keeping on schedule. 

We dwell in the past or long for the future and the truth is that the only moment we have is NOW.

Time exists only in our minds.

Sixteen-year-old Allana in CHANGED IN THE NIGHT dwells in the past, still consumed with guilt a decade after accidentally killing her twin brother. In the meantime, all sorts of things are happening in the present moment, things she's unaware of  because she's too busy with her regrets. Her state of being is negative; her actions, thoughts, and words prevent her from improving her situation. Always unhappy, down on herself, and filled with remorse, nothing ever changes. Her outer world mirrors her inner world, and her outer world is the bombing of Hiroshima, nuclear destruction, devastation, and misery.

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. No wonder Allana winds up in a psych ward. No wonder no one believes when she's visited by aliens and marked. And no wonder she struggles so much during her journey to become whole. 

Dreams, thoughts, and visions create your world.

We are creators of our present moment. We designed it by our earlier thoughts, deeds, and words. All that we resist persists. What we do today in the NOW determines what tomorrow will be like. What's amazing is that we create our lives, moment by moment as we become aware of answers that are already there. 

Even Michelangelo knew this. He discovered that the very act of creation is realizing that something has been there all along. He said, "Every block of stone has a statue inside it and it is the task of the sculptor to discover it."

And that is our task as well. 

NOTHING IS AS IT SEEMS

Everything is energy. Te universe is energy. We are energy.

Life can be puzzling. 

Do you recall the first time you realized you were alive, that "Aha" moment of awareness of being a living, breathing human being?  It's something we put out of our minds, this miracle that we're part of an ever-evolving and creative universe with vibrant life all around. 

It's almost too much to consider,  so we focus on mundane ordinary things in order to avoid the reality that we are nothing more than energy, all interconnected, and impermanent beings.

In the YA novel CHANGED IN THE NIGHT, sixteen-year-old Allana Odette Blair deals with this awareness as she struggles with separating her dreams from reality. As humans, we're flawed, and Allana is definitely flawed with eyes of two different colors, wild red hair, and a terrible guilty conscience. 

Allana thinks she's chosen to be a warrior.

But we're flawed in other ways too. We reject rather than accept. We cannot see clearly and cannot even see ourselves. We hold onto ancient beliefs and the status quo because we feel more comfortable that way. We remain self-critical and non-compassionate. We compete, slay our own kind, and condemn. It's the way it's always been, so we think it's the way it should always be. We fear change. After all, scientific discoveries might bring to light the awesome truth that the moon and stars weren't made simply for our benefit? 

Allana in CHANGED IN THE NIGHT has her own set ideas. She thinks she's chosen and meant to be a warrior. She assumes that hanging on with all her might is being brave, but sometimes courage is in the letting go. 

Change is inevitable. Anything is possible. Nothing is as it seems. 

BOOK DISCUSSION & STUDY PROMPTS

Book Discussion & Study Prompts

1) Find Hidden Meanings: A literary element often used by authors is symbolism. An object, event, animal, color or words spoken by a story character can have a deeper and more significant meaning. A chain, for example, might mean a union or connection between two people, but it can also mean imprisonment. CHANGED IN THE NIGHT has many such symbols throughout the book.  Find five symbols. Then choose three symbols to analyze and discuss.

2) Forgotten History: Events, like the Holocaust, 9/11, the assassinations of John Fitzgerald Kennedy and Martin Luther King, Jr., the Sandy Hook school shootings, Hurricane Katrina, ISIS beheadings, and space journeys to the moon fade in memory as time goes on. Using examples found in the CHANGED IN THE NIGHT and other sources, discuss American life during the mid-20th century. Consider how people communicated with one another, prepared family meals, and spent leisure time. Then analyze, compare, and contrast American life in 1952 to the way things are today.

3) Relationships: Everyone handles personal trauma and loss in a different way. Consider the various issues Allana and her mother are each dealing with and select three of the most important. Then analyze, compare, and contrast how Allana and her mother deal with these specific problems in different ways.

4) Truth of Lie: An unreliable narrator does not tell an accurate or credible story, and this might be due to maturity level, past experiences, or mental state at the time of the telling. CHANGED IN THE NIGHT is told in the first-person point of view. Analyze Allana as a narrator. Does she tell contradicting stories or offer incomplete explanations? Or is she completely honest with the reader. Find evidence in the novel to support her reliability or unreliability as a narrator.

5) Beliefs: Each character in CHANGED IN THE NIGHT has a different view about life. Why do you think this is true? Give two reasons. Find an example or provide a quote from the book that demonstrates opposing points of view. Relate a personal experience from your own life where you and someone else had a strong different of opinion. How did it affect your relationship?

6) Energy: Albert Einstein said, "Everything is energy and that's all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics." What does this quote? How does Einstein's view relate to events that take place in the CHANGED IN THE NIGHT?

7) UFOs: Unexplained phenomena in CHANGED IN THE NIGHT is based on government disclosures, reported events, and interviews with abductees. Some people claim to have been abducted by aliens; others say they have seen UFOs. Many people, however, think such disclosures are bogus or farfetched. What do you believe? Are you for or against the proposition that alien life exists? Based on evidence from at least three reliable sources, prepare an valid argument with three supporting points to prove your thesis.

8) Science 1: Physical laws governing matter, space, and time are discussed throughout CHANGED IN THE NIGHT. Review these scientific theories, and then identify and discuss at least two physical laws.

9) Science 2: The scientific method is a way for investigating phenomena, acquiring new knowledge, or correcting and integrating previous knowledge. To be scientific, a method of inquiry must be based on empirical or measurable evidence subject to specific principles of reasoning. Science, however, can be a double-edged sword. Identify at least three ways science has improved our existence on Earth. Then provide evidence that science has also been detrimental in an equal number of ways.

10) Aliens: Knowing for certain that we are not alone in the Universe would affect our belief systems, politics, traditions, communication, military, education, and global economy. Prepare a Presidential announcement to inform the public without inciting panic about aliens among us and cite three specific ways life will immediately change. Then change your point of view and prepare five pertinent questions for the press conference immediately following the announcement.

11) War: Martin Luther King, Jr. said, "Wars are poor chisels for carving out peaceful tomorrows." What did he mean by these words? Starting with the bombing of Pearl Harbor as the cause, list the effects that take place in CHANGED IN THE NIGHT.

12) Story-time: Stories are told and retold to entertain, explain, inform, and teach. We use stories in jokes, poetry, and games. Discuss a story from your childhood that made a lasting impression and explain why. Describe ways stories are being told today. In what ways are stories beneficial? In what ways might they be harmful?

13) Dreams: Dwelling in the past or longing for the future are examples of being in the dream state. Many people, especially in today's media-filled world, seem to slog through life that way. In CHANGED IN THE NIGHT, Allana has her own difficulty separating reality (fact) from fantasy (fiction). There are, however, people who manage to connect to reality and the present moment. Why are they more alive than others in the present moment? Describe three instances when you felt especially alive, and then analyze the reasons why.

14) AIWS: Allana suffers from the Alice in Wonderland Syndrome. If you're unfamiliar with Lewis Carroll's 1865 classic, ALICE IN WONDERLAND, review or research the story, themes, symbols, and motifs. Then compare and contrast similar or common ideas found in ALICE IN WONDERLAND and CHANGED IN THE NIGHT.

WHAT I LEARNED FROM ALBERT EINSTEIN

During the research for CHANGED IN THE NIGHT, I discovered that Albert Einstein was not only a brilliant physicist but also a philosopher.

Here are twelve quotes from Einstein that closely connect with ideas touched upon in CHANGED IN THE NIGHT:

 1) You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else.

 2) It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity.

 3) The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing.

 4) To raise new questions, new possibilities, to regard old problems from a new angle, requires creative imagination and marks real advance in science.

 5) Our task must be to free ourselves by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature and its beauty.

 6) There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.

 7) The world is a dangerous place to live; not because of the people who are evil, but because of the people who don't do anything about it.

 8) That deep emotional conviction of the presence of a superior reasoning power, which is revealed in the incomprehensible universe, forms my idea of God.

 9) All religions, arts and sciences are branches of the same tree.

10) A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy?

11) We still do not know one thousandth of one percent of what nature has revealed to us.

12) You cannot simultaneously prevent and prepare for war.

Q&A: MARYANN EASLEY

An Interview with MaryAnn Easley, author of CHANGED IN THE NIGHT now available on Amazon.com in paperback and Kindle.

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Q: You've mentioned that CHANGED IN THE NIGHT is an allegorical tale of grief and redemption. What do you mean by that?

A: Allana has been suffering from guilt and grief ever since she accidentally killed her twin brother Jack more than a decade before. She's unable to move on in her life and is unwilling to let go. She holds Jack in a symbolic place called Abeyance. I think anyone suffering from grief is in a similar situation. There is never any closure when it comes to grief. There is only the grief and our relationship to it. Eventually, we must let go, but it doesn't mean there's closure.

Q: She must have been very young when she killed her brother. What happened?

A: On December 7, 1941, Japanese planes bombed Pearl Harbor. It was a Sunday and time stopped on that day that will "live in infamy." That particular Sunday also happens to be Allana's sixth birthday. She makes play swords out of yardsticks while her parents gather at the church to discuss the horror of the day. Once released to play in the park, the children duel. Allana lunges, Jack loses his footing and falls, striking his head. His death is the backstory of CHANGED IN THE NIGHT. Nothing is the same after that day. The inciting incident is when she is visited in 1952 by aliens and marked.

Q: UFOs appear over the White House in your story. This is 1952 and five years after the Roswell incident. Is the White House event fact or fiction?

A: Fact. You can look up the newspaper headlines. Harry Truman was President at the time.  I pored over the newspaper articles, eyewitness accounts, the air traffic controller's comments and the followup interviews of pilots who tried to chase the UFOs. Every UFO incident in the book is based on fact. I didn't make any of that part up. Even when Allana is abducted and taken to the moon, I based the event on eyewitness accounts of abductees.

Q: Have you ever seen a UFO?

A: Yes, while traveling north along the coast on my boat. It was night and I saw at least four unidentified flying objects and they flew in ways no airplanes or helicopters could possibly fly. I know a pilot who chased a UFO while in the military, just as Allana's ace pilot uncle does in the story. UFO encounters are more common than anyone thinks.

Q: Do you honestly think there's a government coverup?

A: Probably.

Q: If UFOs are so common, why don't more people report seeing them more often?

A: People don't look up. We are all too busy studying the screens on our devices. We're heads down, focused on the mundane things in life. We need to look up at the sky more often than we do. Those who do see them are reporting them on social networking. People are aware of what astronauts have seen on the far side of the moon and seen the photos from NASA.

Q: All your other books are for children or young adults. What audience is this book for?

A: For the intelligent young person who thinks, I suppose, but also for adults. The book can be read on several levels. Like Judy Blume, I really never intended to write for young audiences. I AM THE ICE WORM just happened and many adults as well as young people read the book. The same is true for many of my books that followed. This book is by far the most complex and difficult I've ever written. 

Q: It seems many of your other books are based on some of your real life experiences. How about this one?

A: That's true. I taught in the Alaska bush and three of my books are based on living there. I lived on a sailboat and fished commercially for salmon and one book is based on that experience. I taught on a USMC base and one book is based on that part of my life. The stories are all fiction, but the facts behind the stories are based on actual events that have happened in my own life. 

Q: But not this book?

A: No, it's not based on my life, but it's filled with all sorts of ideas that have been marinating in my head for a long time, ideas about science and religion and the interconnectedness of al living beings and how humans don't seem to be fully evolved as yet. I had three teen readers in Chula Vista look at portions of a draft, and I was amazed by their insight and intelligence. If thirteen and fourteen-year-old kids are anything like Alondra, Priscilla, or Ambar, then they can handle the subject matter and the other complexities in the book. I'm grateful for the feedback and suggestions from my teen readers. So when you ask what the audience I'm aiming for, I would say the book is for teens and adults. I used to teach middle school and I've put discussion prompts in the book for classes and book clubs. I would use this book in eighth grade. Maybe seventh. There's a lot to consider and discuss, and the prompts tie in with the state standards and common core. And I think adults would find it of interest too. 

Q: What did you learn during the research and the writing of CHANGED IN THE NIGHT?

A: Oh wow, I learned a lot! I learned about the space-time continuum, about the nuclear devastation of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, about E=mc ² and Einstein's theory of relativity. I learned about the Cold War and arms race and how UFOs were seen in the Korean conflict. I learned how everything is energy, you and me, the table we're sitting at, the chairs we're sitting in, and how everything is energy and interconnected. That interconnectedness of all living things should bring about peace. We should be living with compassion every minute of our lives. Unfortunately, it seems we're more divided than ever.

Q: What's the most memorable thing you learned from doing all that research?

A: By far, the increased awesomeness of nuclear power. I was sickened when I discovered details about the devastation of Hiroshima and Nagasaki. I viewed film from that time, read eyewitness accounts, and listened to testimony of survivors. This knowledge affected me tremendously because I tutor Japanese students now, and they are the grandchildren or great-grandchildren of the Japanese people who endured that devastation. I want to apologize to them over and over. How can we be so cruel to one another? We are all one. When will we realize that? Always before, the easy answer to dropping the atomic bombs in Japan has been "well, it ended the war and saved thousands of lives, didn't it?" Maybe so, but I'm totally opposed to nuclear weapons now. Even some of the creators of the bomb regretted opening that horrible Pandora's  box that will lead to the end of the world. Some suspect nuclear bases on the moon and the ramifications of that is too much to even think about. I have a Japanese boy in the story, Eiichi Nakamura, who spent part of his childhood in Manzanar during the war, and I put him in the story on purpose. In 1952, the residue from tha war still remained even though we were in the Korean "conflict" and our former enemies were considered "alien." There's an attraction that cannot be denied between Allana and Eiichi, and yet there's that lingering doubt. Is my enemy really my friend? In killing my enemy, do I slay myself? We are all part of the human race, all interconnected. Why do we insist on killing one another?

Q: Sounds serious, but you've compared your book to ALICE IN WONDERLAND. In what way are the stories alike?

A: Both books are pretty serious, if you really think about it. Both are about the time-space continuum. Lewis Carroll was brilliant in the creative way he demonstrated how time works. I had no clue back when I first read the book as a child or even during later reads. I was only interested in memorizing Jabberwocky, the "'Twas brillig" bit and really didn't understand the events at all. I've had to live this long to really figure it out, and believe me, I went down the rabbit hole when I got into the time-space-other dimensional-quantum physics stuff. Whew! My head is still spinning. I am so grateful to Lewis Carroll for the story and for the title CHANGED IN THE NIGHT that I dedicated my book to Alice. And to my brother Jack, of course.